God is our supply. He desires to provide in all areas of our lives, but we often get in the way. We must learn to trust in God and His perfect way.
It was a miracle. The tiniest of miracles, but it opened my eyes to God. It gave me a new view of how real He is, and how much He cares for me; for us…
Did you know that God can listen to our hearts? Did you know He still does miracles everyday? I’m here to prove this to you, but also pray that you can allow God to prove this to you too!
The World’s Supply
I talked, briefly, at the beginning of the year about my husband taking a complete 180 in career paths. I spoke about how calm I was about this change, considering my habitual responses. This was a step of faith, and a direction that God had called him toward. We knew it was going to be a bit uncomfortable. We would be going from a steady, constant pay check, to an inconsistent, ever changing one.
If you watched that video, you know we talked about supernatural peace.
My current status: freaking out. What the heck happened? Where did my peace go?
Oh, it went right down the toilet when things became real. The reality of paying the mortgage, conserving gasoline, buying groceries and school supplies when we haven’t had a steady pay check since April. A bit uncomfortable? That’s kind of an understatement.
We are immensely blessed. We have the opportunity every year to have a somewhat “free” vacation. Family property allows us this freedom. However, as I said before, Casey’s pay check is extremely inconsistent. So, even though we were able to spend time at the beach, anything extra wouldn’t happen: the couple times we go out to eat, the ice cream stops after a long day of play, the trinket shopping.
We decided we would save a little to have at least one night out. Hallelujah! Momma didn’t have to cook! As we sat down and started looking over the menu, my heart just sent a quiet request to the Lord.
“Lord, it would be so nice if our meal could be paid for.”
We had the most lovely meal! My little family, the sea air, the live music, the fresh seafood. I was so grateful for our day and our ability to spend this moment together. And just like that, our waitress said…
“Have a great night!”
“But we haven’t paid.”
“Someone already took care of your check for you.”
Oh sweet friend! God truly sees us and hears the desires of our hearts. He cares for us in ways we can’t even imagine. My quiet request wasn’t out of greed, or recognition. It was a cry of thanksgiving, a cry of gratitude and He honored me. He honored my family. God knew I needed to see that He is the only provision I need. He is the only one I can truly rely on.
Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
Luke 12:24-26, NIV
That day was perfect. The choice I made to not fret or fear of the days to come, will never be a regret. I did not fear how the mortgage would be paid, concern myself with the fact that Casey desperately needs a new car, or worry about the grocery having sales on items I need. I lived in trust and thankfulness that God supplied today, and has already taken care of tomorrow. He showed up in a tiny, powerful way because I trusted in Him!
Unfortunately, when I put my trust in Casey to provide, to supply for all our needs and desires, I denied God and who He is. I denied Him the opportunity to become and to stay our provider. I am learning to daily lay down myself, my concerns for tomorrow and rely on the miracles and provisions of today.
There have been so many more instances of provision over the course of this season. My “freak out” is being redeemed and replaced with peace again! I can now say, I am so grateful, so thankful to my provider. Yahweh Yireh.
I just want to confirm that God is good! God listens. He’s there. Outcomes may differ from what we think, but that doesn’t change His faithfulness or His ability to supply. He’s El Roi, Yahweh Yireh, and Yahweh Shalom. He sees, provides, and gives His peace!