Learning to be vulnerable can be scary, but the reward of living this way is great. Being open allows God to redeem us and be an encouragement to others.



This is one of the hardest posts I’ll have to write. It’s all about me. I’m not particularly fond of talking about myself, but I am an expert on the matter (sometimes). Simply put, I’m Katie! This is the most “to the point” I can ever achieve. “But who IS this Katie?” So far, I have attained the titles of wife, mother, daughter, friend. Most specifically, I am an Executive of Household Management. Majoring in the Studies of Efficiency, with a minor in Cooking Sciences and Day Planning. Seriously, I’m a homemaker. I make our home run while chasing three handsome boys (one of which is my husband).

I get through the day on coffee, wine, and my sweet friend Jesus. I adore science fiction movies and fantastical stories. I love creating and imagining. I gain most inspiration after conversations with my husband (he’s the “talker” of the relationship) and trips to the beach. Being a mom… Wow! Two of the greatest moments happened when my two boys took form (biased)! They are difficult, and confusing, and make me say the strangest phrases sometimes (I’ll let you imagine what two boys can accomplish). But they bring a beautiful level of love and energy to our home that I would never want to replace.

Now, to the nitty bits… GERONIMO…

It’s difficult for me to pinpoint one or two specific instances that started me along my journey. Most moments in my mind are not compartmentalized. It’s gray in there. However, I can say, starting at a fairly young age, I allowed insecurity to guide my thoughts. I allowed people, loved ones or otherwise, to heavily influence decisions I made and, ultimately, the way I thought of myself. I allowed negativity, of all shapes and sizes, to make their homes in my mind. Instead of a flourishing confidence, a dangerous spirit took hold of my heart. I found it easier to listen to whispers than the booming voice of God.

As you can imagine, if a trend like this continues into teen years, the outcome in early adulthood is crippling. There was, and still is, a constant battle of overcoming negativity and insecurity. Outcomes of this mindset are not shining moments in my life. I entered toxic relationships, cut off friends, passed up opportunities, ignored family, caused myself physical harm, made unhealthy decisions. I don’t look back fondly on these choices. They are ugly, and raw, and very difficult to discuss. These are the bits that are the dingiest and can push people right out the door.

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However, when you turn your darkest parts over to the Lord and ask Him to make something beautiful, there is a level of vulnerability required. The gritty, nasty pieces need to be on the table to make your testimony valuable. That’s my prayer. That my continued lessons, my pain, my journey bring hope through the saving grace of Jesus. That this life will glorify God, and all that I do and say be in obedience to His commandments.

 

God didn’t set us up for an angry rejection but for salvation by our Master, Jesus Christ. He died for us, a death that triggered life. Whether we’re awake with the living or asleep with the dead, we’re alive with him! So speak encouraging words to one another. Build up hope so you’ll all be together in this, no one left out, no one left behind. I know you’re already doing this; just keep on doing it.  

1 Thessalonians 5:9-11 (The Message)

 

I may not always write about new and exciting things. At times, we may get heavy and raw, but I hope the words you read will, ultimately, uplift, encourage, and wrap you with a warm blanket. Don’t like warm blankets? I have ice water. Let’s laugh and cry together. Let’s learn some hard lessons together! Let’s “do faith” together.

 

 

Julia Caesar

About the author
Katie
I'm a high functioning introvert, coming to terms with the fact that life is better together. Healing my idea of friendship and relationship has given me the confidence to step out of comfort and into true community. Isolation used to be my identity, but helping others find safety in coming together is what motivates me.

I believe healing and redemption are obtainable for every single person and true peace is found when we accept our freedom in Christ. Creating, listening, and finding common ground are my God-given strengths. I pray I can use these to prove there is light in darkness, hope in despair, and value in imperfection.

Comments (25)

  1. I so thankful our paths have crossed. I look forward to reading more of your posts and being vulnerable with you as well.

  2. I can identify so much with how scary it is to be vulnerable by sharing the dark parts of our stories! But when we make ourselves willing and available, God truly can make something beautiful out of those places. The hardest parts of my story turns out to be what God is using to minister to others.
    Thanks so much for “putting yourself out there”– well done!

  3. Ah, vulnerability… a subject that really makes people uncomfortable for sure! I so want to be there and it never ceases to amaze me how the Holy Spirit guides my steps and uses so many resources to speak a message into my heart and vulnerability just happens to be on the menu for me lately! Beautiful post – thank you!

    1. Thank you Michelle! I hope and pray the Holy Spirit continues to guide you, especially on your road to vulnerability! You’re journey may impact someone!

  4. I love this post for so many reasons. Maybe because I’ve waited so long to be truly vulnerable and honest in this journey. Thank you for affirming what I know He wants me to be!

  5. “However, when you turn your darkest parts over to the Lord and ask Him to make something beautiful, there is a level of vulnerability required.” This is such a true statement! I know that my past pains, wounds, and poor decisions have been used by God to give me greater empathy for others and to help guide them towards truth. Thank you for allowing us to share in your vulnerability! God Bless!

  6. I have been in your situation too; I let my insecurities control how I thought; trust me that did not end well….. I love how you call your husband a handsome boy aaw

    1. Thanks Jackie!! My hubs was pretty happy about the shout out, however he was quick to remind me he’s a MAN! Hehe! I know there’s a lot who allow negativity to run their thoughts, I’m praying, daily, for the Lord to help me not fit into this category.

  7. Sharing the pure raw things about yourself and showing vulnerability is quite beautiful. Thank you for the reminder that God can use my “dark parts” for something good. Be blessed!

  8. Thanks for sharing your story, Katie! This part was powerful for me: “However, when you turn your darkest parts over to the Lord and ask Him to make something beautiful, there is a level of vulnerability required.”

    This is faith in a nutshell – the ability to trust in God when we don’t know the outcome. We have faith that He is good and will do what is best, even when we don’t know what that will be.

    1. Thank you, Zackry! I’m still watching outcomes bloom in dark areas! I am so amazed by God’s grace and goodness!

  9. I understand how difficult it is to be vulnerable all too well. I think writing is often one of the most vulnerable things we can do but it is so worth it! Thank you for sharing 🙂

    1. Thank you, Katie! I’m finding out, quickly, that writing is an extremely vulnerable ministry. However, God is giving me great courage!

    1. Thank you, Amanda! I’m so glad most of us are striving to be vulnerable for the Lord! It’s good to know I’m not alone!

  10. I agree! It is such a process though to learn to be more vulnerable especially if there is fear of judgment. To grow in this area is not easy but then again when is any kind of growth ever easy? Thanks for sharing!

    1. You’re right! Growth is uncomfortable and a tough process! I lay down my fear, daily, to the Lord! Thank you, Lisa!!

  11. This is a great blog. Sometimes we have to become vulnerable when it comes down to Jesus. God is so amazing and the way I see it now there is always a solution to our problems!! God bless!!

  12. Wow Katie♥️ You’re such a blessing. Sometimes we, who are godly women and love the Lord, think we have to be perfect…. that we’re not supposed to make mistakes… Your raw honesty about your life is powerfully encouraging.
    Thank you for sharing your heart ,
    Love in Christ

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